What's More Dangerous than rock climing? : Rock Climbing w/ no health insurance!!!

Well, sorry to end so suddenly last night. I ended up going over to campus in the CSU truck and getting the wheelchair delivered. Not fun but not too bad either. Hey, another hour of pay right? Then this morning I get the call at 7am Donna needs the ONE wheelchair- GREAT! Well she made it over to the corbett office and it all worked out. Karen calls at 7:30, wants me to the student center by 8. This works fine cuz i need motivation AND she says I'm gonna get paid under the table to move boxes for this Lunch Lady conferece, in addition to my CSU pay.

Guess what? Doesn't happen! I spend 3ish hours busting my ass lifting seriously heavy boxes and delivering them all over the student center and I don't end up getting anything. This would have bee completely fine w/ me had they not promised Karen they'd pay me... Oh well - teaches me to wear my CSU shirt I guess when I'm doing "extra" jobs like that. I guess it got me out of my office and some exercise, and besides I was still on the clock w/ CSU (I think I actually put in like 10 plus hours today, yahoo).

Just got back from rockclimbing and bouldering w/ James up at the resevoir. That was really fun and I hope we do it some more. The main thing was not challenging myself too much as I dont' have insurance right now, neither does James. There was a lot of routes I knew from my small experiences climbing at UNI and just from knowing what I can do that I could have done, but i didn't for fear of a stupid mistake and falling over 10 feet. It was really beautiful up there tonight. A good sunset and the lake was gorgeous. I'm so dumb for not finding a way to get out and enjoy everything CO Has to offer more. Even w/o a car I should get up to the foothills and mountains and do more stuff outside. Thats one thing I really regret, and I'm going to take every chance to take in the Colorado stuff that is no where else in the next month. Thats why I told my parents I want to go up the Poudre w/ them, and also why I am excited to go w/ Ben on the train to New Mexico.

Man, he is really being not just a good brother, but a good friend. He's coming all the way out for basically a whole week to get me and bring me and my shit back to Iowa. And he knows I can't afford much and is only making me pay for gas one way.. thats pretty cool. I don't think I've ever done nething for him like that. I shouldn't type stuff like "nething" because it makes me look less intelligent. I should proofread too, but I"m too lazy for that.

In writing Ben back, I was forced to think a little about what it will be like to say goodbye to Ashley. She will probably be the last person I see before I leave Fort Collins. Just thinking about this starts to bring on the waterworks, so it will be interesting to see how long I can deny that its really going to happen. God, I love her. Some days I wish badly we were still in love like in the beginning... but its just not the same anymore. hmmpffff... I don't want to have to think about this yet.

On a positive note - Karen emailed me today just to say I was doing a good job after I sent out some feedback from the goalkeeper conference. Also, she told me that verbally as well after I sent out another email that explained some sorta confusing stuff to a sponsor. That kind of stuff is good to hear and I'm glad that I work in our office w/ the people I do. I think this is almost 100 percent because of Craig, and also Gwynne to some extent, and the atmosphere they have chosen to create w/in OCS. Its not quite camp with P and T's every week and hugs everyday, but its a hell of a lot better than a bunch of other offices I'm betting.

This makes me think my prospects are good for finding "real" work post CSU and Maho Bay. It's just what in the hell that work will actually be. I think it would be cool to help James w/ his camp idea... I can definetely see something like that in my future. What else? Peace Corps? Americorp? go back to school so I can teach? Anything that pays the bills so I can live and be w/ friends and family in Iowa? Anything that pays the bills in Colorado? I really have no fucking idea at this point.

Well... 2 nights in a row! its a miracle. I'm gonna put something in the oven to eat and start up the laundry and wash my one pair of shorts. Hopefully I'll keep this up and post tomorow. OH, and Cribs Brevard was really funny, I'll have to say something about that. Later.